#let the suffering begin

[etrevil]

BY THE MAN SHE ADMIRES AND LOVES NO LESS ASAGIRI WHEN I CATCH YOUUU

[stillm0nster]

walked  a  long  way  (  figuratively  )  until  he  finally  succumbed  to  his  true  feelings.  feelings  he  pushed  to  the  side  a  couple  months  ago  when  the  news  of  nova’s  pregnancy  hit  him  like  a  ton  of  bricks.  the  decision  to  follow  his  own  selfish  reasons  and  leave  her  was  something  he  came  to  regret  greatly  now.  too  late,  juwon  …  too  late.  she  probably  hated  him,  judging  by  the  messages  she  left.  from  her  begging  for  him  to  text  back,  call,  anything–-  her  crying  and  sobbing,  saying  his  name  like  a  prayer  and  expecting  he  would  have  a  change  of  heart,  to  cursing  him  and  his  whole  existence.  she  was  going  through  it.  scrolling  through  all  of  these  messages  now  had  made  his  heart  a c h e  but  it  also  opened  his  eyes  and  pulled  up  those  true  feelings  he  so  desperately  tried  to  suppress  for  so  long.  love  wins  all,  they  say.  he  too  cursed  his  own  existence  for  making  her  go  through  all  of  that  but  it  was  done  and  he  couldn’t  do  anything  to  undo  it.  sadly.  releasing  a  heavy  sigh,  he  rang  the  doorbell  as  if  he  was  a  guest  when  he  knew  the  passcode.  he  wasn’t  that  full  of  himself  to  do  that.  he  might  not  be  welcome  there  anymore.  glancing  at  the  watch  on  his  wrist,  he  realized  it  was  a  bit  too  late  into  the  night  to  be  doing  that  and  was  about  to  step  away  when  he  heard  the  familiar  click  and  the  door  slowly  opening.  “  hey–-  ” / @sacriifice

[nyehhh-hh]

To the people i follow and follow me back from another fandom that has no interest in motogp or sports in general (also thinking my blog will be full of contents from said fandom)...... I'm sorry in advance 😔🙏

[corrupteddoodles]

you ever make two ocs who are so similar in appearance that you decide to make them brothers

the one on the left is Aaron, and the one on the right is Chris

[pierogi-png]

just woke up to get ready 4 work n i can't breath out the left side of my nose im so

[zencaia]

Watercolor 🎨

[plenaurum]

The funniest thing about THG is that most of the happenings could've been prevented if the Gamemakers didn't try to renege on the rule change. If they just allowed Katniss and Peeta to win at the same time without trying to milk as much melodrama as possible out of their star-crossed-lover story, Katniss wouldn't have done that shit with the berries. And the uprisings would've arguably been kept at a minimum.

So really, it's their fault for trying to push their luck.

[woolying]

posting wip so i have the motivation to finish it eventually...surely i dont give up....

monitoring feat vero

[fromtheseventhhell]

Arya made a face and hugged the wolfling tight. Nymeria licked her ear, and she giggled. (Arya I, AGoT)

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“Girls don’t shave,” Arya said. “Maybe they should. Have you ever seen the septa’s legs?” She giggled at him. “It’s so skinny.” (Jon II, AGoT)

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"Stay away?" Mercy giggled. She was a giggly sort of girl, was Mercy. "No. I've got to get closer." (Mercy, TWoW)

Mercy was a giggly sort of girl...and so was Arya, once upon a time.

[paul-simon-juggling]

Today I bring you a 1980 Paul interview that made me lose my mind like nothing else : )

[tinyfantasminha]

So what did you think of the Shadow beginnings episode?

ANON THIS IS CRAZY I LITERALLY JUST WATCHED THE EPISODE AND THEN A MINUTE LATER THIS ASK ARRIVED??????? AM I BEING SPIED ON OR WHAT

I WATCHED THE EPISODE WITH MY FRIEND STREAMING AND MAN. MANNNNNNNNNNNNN CRYING AND GASPING AND SCREAMING

THE ANIMATION IS GORGEOUS AND THE SCENES WITH MARIA.......I LOVE THEM SOMUCH YOUR HONOR WHY MUST THEY SUFFER LIKE THIS (I WANT SUFFERING ITS FOR HIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT MAKE HIM SUFFER

ALSO WHAT HAPPENEED HERE?????????!?!??? THE VISION?!?!?!? HOLY SHIT??

This is most likely not real and Shadow is in a meta-dream world of his memories made by Black Doom??? probably?? It looks like he will try to prevent Maria's demise at all costs......but ultimately he can't....... because it's a canonical event..... </3 OUUHGHH IM FEELING SICK.......... WE ARE SO BACK WE ARE SO BACKKKKKKKKKK

[cyberphuck]

Must… hold in… Neil Gaiman situation… opinions…

[dirtytransmasc]

this video is so aegon coded, in my mind (I am the eldest child, I technically ruined my mom's life, but she tries so hard to love me, she DOES love me, but our relationship is so strained because of the way she's treated me due to her own pain. I think I'm a good enough reference on this)

like. him and alicent. with all their messiness. at the end of the day, that's HIS mommy, and no matter what, even when he feels like he hates her, she is beautiful and perfect and no one can say a bad thing about her because he loves her and she loves him and that makes everything ok at the end of the day.

sometimes he's mean to her, she's too rough, he feels like he hates her, she can barely look at him. but god forbid someone insult her in his presence, he will actually have a breakdown. that's his mommy and he loves her and forgives her and hopes she can forgive him and just wants her to be happy so they can all be happy.

like little kid aegon, he was always playing with her hair and her jewelry, telling her she was pretty. gently poking at her face, like toddlers do, when she was upset, trying to figure out what was wrong. he'd hug her clumsily and tell her it was alright. and he remembers that, he remembers wanting his mom to be happy and to know she was beautiful and that he was there (again, in the way a toddler does) and he stills wants that. he wants to be small and to make his mom smile and feel better. that's his job! he's supposed to protect her and make her happy!

I especially imagine this happens frequently cause of how her father and his father treat her, how the court treats her, how everyone treats her. they all so mean to her, even in ways that are quiet and seemingly mundane. he must hate it. hate the way they tear her apart with their words and their eyes. the way they subtly mock her. he must feel so angry but so helpless and conflicted.

and it all boils down to him becoming a sobbing, snotty, (in his case) drunken mess and I love that for him (I mean I feel really bad, this shit sucks, but you know what I mean)

[smuggsy]

i just watched all of us strangers and um, that shit hits hard

[simcardiac-arrested]

no actually I’d like to hear your thoughts on the isat ending

Like i said it felt really tropey and by that i meant that it’s just Everything Good Happens forever and…..that’s it ? like idk we were building up to this huge catharsis sort of thing and then we got to it and it was so sudden and not a good payoff and just kind of nothingburger of an ending . the fact that everyone just forgives siffrin bothers me, or at least the fact that they don’t confront them about the shit they’ve said and done. call me a mental illness villainizer but i think if you’re a fucking asshole and doing the most insensitive things to the people you care about then hey, i think those ppl have a right to fucking tell you off for it. likeeee idk being at your lowest point …… not an excuse …. not feeling it chief ……. like sure the message is to move past your mistakes or whatever but ? that doesn’t mean just getting away with it ??? and i just really don’t understand Why everyone forgives him. honestly at the end of the day the ending is just one problem, the root of which are the characters. everyone feels like trope cardboard cutouts. oh, this is the smart one. this is the smol bean. this is the himbo. and they all care for each other btw. Did u hear that? they all care for each other. we’re not really going to explain to you why these people are so close or what they went through together but just trust me man they’re sooo found famy. like …. okay. i’ve played 30 hours of this game and not once did i buy that any of the characters really cared about each other. like??? why???? You’re telling me everyone super cares about siffrin even though they barely know them?? you’re telling me siffrin cares about everyone sooo much even though he never even bothered to find out their problems before ? Wat ? and this just breaks the ending more because literally whyyy do these people care about him so bad. and then it’s just whyyy does siffrin Have to tell them anything he doesn’t even seem to know them that well. everyone feels like colleagues and Just Friends at best. and so the ending just seems really forced. like it was written by that type of tumblr user who’s always talking about aww why does the found family have to break up after the end of the journey :( which is like fiiiiine. i guess. but u guys know that u have to build up to it right?? you can’t just tell me they’re Family Members(tm) 102829 times and that they super care about each other source: trust. you can’t just do that and then expect me to believe it ….. It feels unearned. the ending feels unearned and i don’ttttt understand what i’m supposed to take away from it . that it’s ok to fuck people up because you’re traumatized and insecure?? that you have to talk about your deepest problems with people you barely know??? i just dont know. Like i said if im being honest the problems with this game’s writing are more than just the ending, it just stands out so much because there’s a lot of build up and then just …… That

[novadreii]

rewatched arrival for the hundredth time. this movie never fails to gut punch me with its approach to determinism. louise embracing her future that she knows every moment of, despite the tremendous loss and pain it contains, with open arms. she doesn't hesitate, or ruminate on how she can try and change it. she accepts it all, the good and the bad, because what she gains is worth it, so many times over for her. she steels herself against a certain future and runs forward to meet it all, to love, learn, and lose, and trusts and leans on herself to live through it all. because that's what life is; it's the joy and the suffering. to try and isolate the joy alone is madness, futility in its purest definition.

comparing her line of thinking to a palindrome (how she named her daughter, hannah), the movie kept emphasizing, "it's the same backwards as it is forwards." it doesn't matter if you can see the end; life is the same whether you live it "forwards" (without knowledge of the future) or "backwards" (with foresight). it doesn't change the significance of your life experiences; to try and avoid certain future pain just because you have the knowledge of it is a zero sum game. you think you win because you avoided pain, but you also avoided the joy that preceded it. the metamorphosis. so you still lose if you try to win, and vice-versa.

all you can do is rush forward and take it all head-on. see this whole beautiful mess as your one most precious gift; this one life, this one chance, a laughably miniature blip on the colossus that is linear time, to experience all there is to feel before you return back to an eternity without perception. it's all worth it, because only in living a full-fledged life open to everything it has to offer does the experience of living turn out to be greater than the sum of its parts; it's in trying to beat the system (avoid pain) that we actually lose.

"if you could see your whole life from start to finish, would you change things?"

"maybe i'd say what i feel more often. i...i don't know."